Maybe that's what Heaven is for

Today everything about motherhood was overwhelming. The tantrums, the lack of sleep, the food fits, and the lack of control I really have on my day (ex: got everything and everyone down for naps including me when one child wakes up...no nap for me).

Sometimes motherhood is one of those things we try and conquer in this life and yet it's always slightly out of our grasp - therefore stretching us to grow.

Tonight while I was hanging on to my hope and faith (in the strength God gave me and in the faith He has in me), trav took Brynlie outside for a much needed break (for both of us). I opted for cleaning the kitchen, which truly was a nice break. While cleaning I was listening to "hilary week radio" on pandora and thinking about the gigantic task yet privilege motherhood is for me when the song sang, "maybe that's what heaven is for."

It made so much sense right then. Oh how I want to have everything together and be a fantastic mother. Yet it's a little out of my grasp (like, I'm not perfect). But how comforting it is to hope that one day (far way) I WILL have it all together. One day my kitchen will be spotless AND my child will fully understand that she can't throw a fit about everything (or anything!) :)

Then (if that wasn't comforting enough), Heavenly Father sent another great song. All the words were too perfect to not include them all:

I know you wonder
If you’ll ever have a day
Where the kids stay calm, the laundry’s done
And the dishes are put away


And sometimes you feel like
Your days are spent and gone
And the question running through your mind
Is what have I gotten done
And when you finally have a moment to slow down
At the end of your day I know Father would say


Believe in what you’re doing
Believe in who you are
And hold tight to the truth that you’re a daughter of God
Believe in who you’re becoming, believe in who you are


Now it might seem simple
All the little things you do
But the lives you touch matter so much
And there’s no one else like you


And Father needs you to stand tall and faithful
To be all you can be
Oh, if you could see what he sees


You’d believe in what you’re doing
You’d believe in who you are
So hold tight to the truth that you’re a daughter of God
Believe in who you’re becoming, believe in who you are


And when it’s hard to believe in yourself
And you feel like you’re beginning to doubt
Remember


That he believes in what you’re doing
He believes in who you are
So don’t lose sight of the truth that you’re a daughter of God
That he believes in who you’re becoming, He believes in who you are

I believe in this challenge and blessing of motherhood. I believe it's my heavenly calling and Heavenly Father will guide me every which way if I submit and not succume to the temptation to lose faith. I know he hears my prayers, the huge ones and the ones about finding the binkie! I am so grateful! And so blessed to have this knowledge in one of the hardest and amazing callings in the world: motherhood.